Every once in a while I have to sit down with paper and pen to work out what my financial standing is. It is a wake up call to see your money laid out there, where it is going, where it is coming from.

I tend to have my finances balanced on the edge of a very high cliff. I am slowly moving away from the edge, but every once in a while I fall a little closer to it.

When I have mornings like this morning where I leave the house to go to work only to find that my windows are iced over, and not just on the outside, I really wish I was farther away from the edge. Wishing I had the ability to walk into the car dealership and say ‘I’d like to buy that car please’, then walk out and smash mine with a sledgehammer.

This then leads to my brain going into over drive thinking about how if only I could find the money to buy a new car I wouldn’t be so annoyed by this and then…well I really don’t know what the ‘and then’ would be, because that road only leads to more debt. Which then gets my brain back on the over extended edge of my finances.

I’m not unhappy about my financial situation, I survive better than most, but sometimes I do wish it were a little easier. I’d like to own a new car, I’d like to take that trip to Scotland, and I’d like to do all those things sooner rather than later. Unfortunately for the time being it seems destined to by later. Though I might do my best to adjust that time table because seriously ICE ON THE INSIDE OF MY CAR?!?

*nope the title makes no sense

I did nothing all day, it was the most pointless of endeavours. *sigh*

I hope your Friday was more productive than mine.

I really wish tomorrow were Saturday and I could sleep in, warm and comfy in my bed.

Alas it is Friday, which means getting up in the dark and the cold and going to work. Work where I have unfortunately run out of actual work. The problem with working in the accounting field is that work is rather sporadic. Oh sure there is tax season when all hell breaks loose and you can barely find the time to think let alone finish your work, but then there is the rest of the year. Spent waiting for people to drop off their year end files, or waiting on clients to bring you the information you need to finish the file.

It was a problem when work was just my step dad and I, but then I at least had the internet, now it is me and 15 other people. When the work dries up it is even worse – plus I have no internet at work anymore.

You are probably thinking, “how bad can not having work be?”, and the answer is that frankly nothing is more stressful than being bored at work. Especially when you are in a job that requires a certain amount of billable hours per year. You start to feel bad for sitting on your hands because there is no work, and no matter how often you tell yourself it isn’t your fault it still feels like it is. You try working a bit slower to stretch out the work but that only works for a few hours. Then you are sitting twiddling your thumbs and wishing the company didn’t block internet access to the sites that are actually entertaining.

Oh well, tomorrow is the end of another week, that is something to look forward to at least. That and getting to sleep in Saturday morning.

How many more to go? I honestly have no idea, minimum of 11, maximum until I retire/get bored/fired/laid off/go crazy, wait how many months is that?

Today marked the end of my first month at my new job. It isn’t really a milestone, but it still feels like an accomplishment. There have definitely been moments where I’ve wanted to pull out my hair or run screaming from the building, but for the most part it has been good. Plus most of the screaming and hair pulling were brought on by boredom or aggravation at having to learn new and more complex ways of doing things I already know how do to.

I’ve survived though, it can only get better from here on out I figure. If it doesn’t I guess it just isn’t meant to be and I’ll find something else, but for now it seems like a good place to stick it out for a while.

I still don’t look forward to going to work in the morning though, which means that I need to focus more of my energy on the other things in my life I enjoy such as photography and reading or friends. If my work life is lacking then I think it is best to make sure my free time isn’t. Of course that is easier said than done, when work is boring or uninspiring it kind of saps the life out of you, making it hard to want to get out and about after work. Especially when it is so easy to just come home, have dinner and veg out with my laptop and some TV shows. Hopefully I can figure a way to kick my own butt into gear though. What do you do to make your life more interesting when some aspects of it just aren’t as perfect as you’d like? What helps you create a livable balance?